merlin6arthur

Title: Memories 1 of 2

Author: merlin6arthur

Pairing: Merlin/Arthur –who else?

Rating: I dunno.

Warnings: Not really, it’s all quite far fetched.

Disclaimer: It’s all not mine – just the nutty idea and the crap laptop are mine!

Summary: Arthur remembers his first love.

 Arthur lay in bed, once again memories filled his mind. It had been years since he had last thought of Merlin - he had tried and tried to wipe his memories of Merlin but always failed. It had been exactly ten years since Merlin had sacrificed himself for him.

Even after all these years he still remembered Merlin's eyes, Merlin's voice and even how Merlin smiled. 
For you, dear reader, to know what has happened we will have to go back in time. Ten years and an hour before this very moment.
This is the story of regrets and sacrifices. This is the story of Prince Arthur and his loyal servant Merlin....

~~~~ 10 years earlier. ~~~~~~~

As the sorceress started chanting Arthur regretted more than ever the things he had said to Merlin the previous day. If he died Merlin would never know the truth, he would never know how sorry he was.
"Like I'd ever care about a stupid, worthless servant!" He had snapped at his after Merlin had used his powers to save him.
"Give me one reason not to kill you."  He had growled pinning Merlin to the wall, his dagger to his cheek. But even as blood began to drip down Merlin's cheek he didn't talk. Arthur had hoped Merlin would somehow manage to make him think but he only stared into his eyes. That only made Arthur madder.

About ten minuets before that happened Arthur had been attacked by some sort of creatures, if Merlin had not saved him he would have certainly died. But not that he lay on the cold floor, unable to move, he remembered how Merlin looked at him. Only that exact second he realised what had been in Merlin's eyes apart from utter and complete trust. There had also been love. If Merlin left him to die Arthur would understand
He didn't understand at the time why he had not managed to give Merlin more than a scar. But now that he knew he only had seconds to live he realised that he had felt the same about Merlin. He had always loved him.
"Nimueh!" A voice called over the chanting. Arthur recognised the voice with shock.
"Awww, Merlin." Nimueh laughed, "You have come at last."

"Let him go." Merlin had snapped as he looked over to him.
"Surely you don't expect me to just let him go." Nimueh smiled stepping towards Merlin.    
"Of course not." Merlin seemed to find it amusing, "You always want something in return." 
Nimueh laughed, "You could still join me." She paused as she walked back to Arthur, "Then the prince could go back to being a prince and we could slowly rip Camelot apart." She ruffled Arthur’s hair.
"The answer is the same as the last time." Merlin replied simply, "Get away from him." He added dryly.
"So what is your barging?" Nimueh asked letting go of Arthur's hair, "The same as last time?" 
"No compromises." Merlin swallowed, "My life for Arthur's."
"Oh, you really have made my day." Nimueh teased before taking Arthur's dagger and headed towards Merlin.

Arthur finally managed to move - but he ran straight over to Merlin. Merlin was standing with his arm outstretched towards Nimueh. Whatever spell he had cast, Nimueh had done the same spell.
A bright light seemed linked from Merlin's hand to Nimueh's hand.
"Get out of here Arthur!" Merlin yelled.
"Not without you." Arthur yelled back.
"So you do care about this useless servant?" Merlin teased sadly, "I'm sorry." He added so just Arthur could hear him.

Next Arthur knew he was lying on the cold grass, not far from his horse. Just as he got up the cave blew up in a massive blue flash. The cave collapsed inwards.
Arthur collapsed to the ground - and for the first time in years, Arthur cried. His love had died without ever knowing how he felt.

 

~~~~~ Back to the present. ~~~~~

Arthur continued the training - his soldiers followed his orders to the letter since he had become king. But just before he could yell at one of them he spotted Gwen run to hug a tall stranger. She rapped her arms around his neck and nearly knocked him over.
Arthur stared at the stranger. He was the most gorgeous man he had ever seen.
The man had short, black hair, milky white skin, big brown eyes and a pale scar down his cheek.
"Merlin," He whispered as the man smiled at Gwen and looked over to him.
Arthur walked over to him, wary but still desperate to see him.
"Hello Arthur." The man smiled. As Arthur looked into his bambi eyes, he felt all his old feelings rushing back.

No matter how much time passed, he would always love him.